I'm want to give u another last as to now hatred, no cheat(both others and self), no complain,no jealousy,no conspiracy, no icecream, no self-indulgence, no indignant to injustice, never let hallucination dominate my judgment, never try to find compensation for loss though someone or sth else, and never lose rationality during 't ask for or take anything for granted to be mine, life is goin on just right the way it should others and 's an ultimate redemption, once failed, I'm doomed.